A Message To Myself


There’s no end to this – “figuring it out,” but maybe there is nothing to figure out. Perhaps life isn’t some grandeur mystery you’re tasked to resolve, and instead it is a riddle. Riddles are mystifying and misleading – an enticing enigma. Although ambiguous, they are also playful and laden with wit – once a […]

You Will Grow From Your Grief


I looked lackadaisically at screen of my phone: “Coffee tomorrow?” When I didn’t answer Katie responded with only symbols: “?!?!?!” followed by the implied screaming of a Caps Lock button – “TANYA!!!???” She paused and let a few more diminutive cycles of seconds pass before she tried again: “Are you alive?!?” Leave it to another […]

The Time I Moved To Idaho


The time I moved to Idaho – what a conundrum I am finally starting to solve and make peace with. I’m going to be real blunt and let y’all know that I went about doing so the entirely wrong way, although I’m not sure there was a better option considering the circumstances. I didn’t mean […]

Goodbye Is Harder Than I Remember


Six years ago I made a decision that equal parts changed & saved my life. Looking back, I can’t imagine any other choice, or path that I could have walked. We sat in our shared dorm room on graduation weekend – the theses had been turned in and all that was left was accepting our […]

Scamp Life: It’s Now Or Never


The other day as I mindlessly scrolled through Facebook, I stumbled upon a post by my friend Nadine: “If someone had told my 18 year old self that one day I’d be so excited about a sink, I would have told them they’re crazy. But now, here I am, 20 years later, posting pictures of […]

The Time I Left Sayulita & Moved Into A Trailer


Since we’ve already referenced my vagina once in this series, I’m going to let you know last week I got my period, and exclaimed: “This is impossible, it hasn’t been a month since Mexico!” Then I realized that it had been, and it was time to wrap this up in a vomit soaked little bow […]